Tired.

I am so tired. Really tired.

From monday up to this present moment, I am so tired. I feel that I’m gonna fall. I was quite busy these past few days which involves the physical, mental, and emotional aspect of my life.

I still have my goal. I know I can still achieve it. I will continue at the expense of my time.

Actually, aside from having exams and requirements satisfaction, there were two mines that bombarded me this past days. After seeing my standing in my two subjects, even though I passed, it is not enough for me. Remember, I have set my goal. I won’t ever let happen what happened to me last semester. I want this semester to be my best semester. Back to the topic, after knowing my grades, honestly, I was not satisfied, they’re low. Those really broke my heart especially in the first subject.

I know I did my best. But that was the result. I know I spent my time doing the right thing. But that was the result. I was so sad.

It is obvious that I don’t want the result. Ask my friends and they shall know.

Why am I like this? I am so scared. I began doubting all of my own capabilities. So I said to myself, there is still another crack at success, success of getting a good grade. Those made me push harder and do all the best beyond my best. I trusted Master to have His way. I trusted myself that I can do it. I trusted my friends that supports me. I trust the subjects that they would go on my side. And those would help me achieve my long-term goal.

Master is always with me. During those hallucinating times, I had always talked with him. And I hope, I can get something better the next time.

I will just calm myself and do things right. Never make crazy and haste decisions but acceptable and leading decisions.