Boring error

I know the semantic error is going to end soon. But the infinite loop won’t. It is my trademark. It has been part of my life. It represents me. It is entrusted to me by Master.

Anyway, welcome to my infinite loop caused by a semantic error. (Haha) May you visit ame-sensei’s blog now and then. Don’t worry, it won’t rain. I just thought as of now that the rain and infinite loop are similar in a sense.

This day was indeterminate. I don’t know what should I feel. But you know I’m happy since I helped my bloc mate do her programming assignment. After that I was so happy. I don’t know why. Anyway, I went to my one and only class this day which is ENG 1. And then, I was in a real question of what to be done next. I saw first Sarang and then I saw Cloud. I and Cloud went to C100 to test and give SystemOne a try. The staff conducted a dry run and anyone can take it. Guess who supervises? Well, our instructor in CMSC 100. And we found it ok but there were still some bugs.

So boring afterwards. Still in question of what to do next. I still do not want to go home to hometown since I think I still have lots of things to do. So I decided to do my ultimate and ever favorite hobby. Programming. I said to myself back then, I should finish the bonus activities. So, for about 4 hours, I finished doing JSP and Perl, wow, two languages at the same time. I enjoyed what I was doing….

May the Master help me. See, I can’t also think of a proper title of this entry. Annyeonghi kyeseyo!

Tired.

I am so tired. Really tired.

From monday up to this present moment, I am so tired. I feel that I’m gonna fall. I was quite busy these past few days which involves the physical, mental, and emotional aspect of my life.

I still have my goal. I know I can still achieve it. I will continue at the expense of my time.

Actually, aside from having exams and requirements satisfaction, there were two mines that bombarded me this past days. After seeing my standing in my two subjects, even though I passed, it is not enough for me. Remember, I have set my goal. I won’t ever let happen what happened to me last semester. I want this semester to be my best semester. Back to the topic, after knowing my grades, honestly, I was not satisfied, they’re low. Those really broke my heart especially in the first subject.

I know I did my best. But that was the result. I know I spent my time doing the right thing. But that was the result. I was so sad.

It is obvious that I don’t want the result. Ask my friends and they shall know.

Why am I like this? I am so scared. I began doubting all of my own capabilities. So I said to myself, there is still another crack at success, success of getting a good grade. Those made me push harder and do all the best beyond my best. I trusted Master to have His way. I trusted myself that I can do it. I trusted my friends that supports me. I trust the subjects that they would go on my side. And those would help me achieve my long-term goal.

Master is always with me. During those hallucinating times, I had always talked with him. And I hope, I can get something better the next time.

I will just calm myself and do things right. Never make crazy and haste decisions but acceptable and leading decisions.

Soon

I can’t still make entries. Expect soon, maybe tomorrow.